I'm trying really hard not to be cynical right now.... But, seriously? I find it interesting that with all the substantial data we submitted, all the other insurance companies currently covering the procedures and, detailed letters from 3 doctors who have examined Blake, that they couldn't see the need to approve the procedure. IT.BOGGLES.MY.MIND.
UCSD has offered to have us talk to their financial aid department but I don't think it can be realistically considered. Like I said before, it could easily become an insurmountable cost. A few people have told me to seek foundations who may be willing to fund the procedure but, to be honest, I don't think we can accept any more denials. I'm about to go effing POSTAL! (Sorry to those who don't like that word but I'm just feeling pretty effing bad right now!)
We agreed previously that we would live with whatever the decision was. But, wow this is a hard one to accept! I have to keep reminding myself.... what-if? What if it's just not meant to be? What if this is our message from a higher power saying that it shouldn't be done? (Do you think I'll be punished for saying effing?) To quote and overused phase, "it is what it is."
So much for the chemo break, huh? Back to chemo next week. Thanks for all your thoughts & prayers. Seriously - maybe they worked? Maybe it just wasn't meant to be.
Love to all, Kathy
P.S. I have grown quite fond of a colorful blog called cancerissofunny.blogspot.com
Here are some comics from the blog that are really appropriate today.
Oh my God we are so sorry to hear this..................... what can we say? what can we do? You get to cry all you want! Know we are here for what ever you need. Lets keep up the good thoughts for the chemo it seems to be doing the trick for now. Who knows what might come done the pike in the future! Try to smile. We love ya
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I am so sorry about that crapy news! Insurance companies suck, plain and simple.
ReplyDeleteI'm so sorry. :-(
ReplyDeleteHopefully you'll just know the right thing to do from here. Keeping you in my prayers that you'll find a few wide open windows, with some new opportunities (and no more "effing" rejections)! **hugs** jf
I am so so sorry!! This is horrible news. Well, the Chemo is not fun but it has been helping...if we can just stay positive and keep praying, miracles happen every day! Blake has been so strong and you, my sweet baby sister...are my hero! I could never have held up like you have. You are brave, strong and a wonderful example for your entire family and friends. I love you more than you will ever know! If you need anything, I mean anything...please do not hesitate to call!
ReplyDeleteI am leaving you with one of my favorite quotes from Helen Keller:
"When one door of happiness closes, another opens; but often we look so long at the closed door that we do not see the one which has been opened for us."
All My Love to You and Blake!
Katie
Oh man. I think all language is appropriate when you just really need to express yourself. You really do have such an amazing attitude, and hopefully something better will come along. We are so sorry, insurance companies have too much control. Just keep Hope. Love Amanda
ReplyDeleteThank you everyone for your kind comments!
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